Today another hard day drains me when depression kicks in..managed to do some reading of help material and managed drag myself out to the gym to run,mainly to get myself around people than stay shut in and just do something ended up doing  4.04 miles in 30m and a bit of weights.still not feeling great but at least been out today and done something...will keep at this I want life to be different.

well sadly today carried on from  yesterday with my mood and feelings which mean overcome with depression...been over some of my support help and need remind myself these dips will happen.But the still hit me hard...going to try again tomorrow and read through some support first try get myself in a better place mind wise.

Today has been one of my worst days for a while...depression hit me hard been in a mess most of the day,had a therapy session which helped  late afternoon but still been a struggle.I hope tomorrow will be  a better day as today could not manage to run or go to the gym,I will try tomorrow though I do not want depression and my problems to win.

this might seem an odd post on a training blog..but this blog is as much about me fighting depression  and my state of mind as it is about running and getting fit.

wish everyone well and thanks for those who take the time to read

wishlist item...GPS watch

I have been looking/researching and well basically I wanting a GPS running watch, for my road runs as sometimes its off on country lanes and paths that cannot measure distance on mapmyrun website.
So many to choose from but going to have to wait as cost is an issue these days for me sadly.....still I can look and dream shame Santa misses me out or would ask the chubby chap to drop one here for me :)

Brooks Mens 5'' Essential Run Short - Gear Review

Hi all decided to start doing some reviews of new gear when I pick it up,so this is a review of +Brooks Running   5" Essential run shorts I purchased.
The shorts material is good not some cheap fabric they are fairly robust and light as expected,although black they do have some reflective details but these are small and not too noticeable.
They have side pockets which are not zip up but there is also a small key size pocket which does zip up for security

The shorts are very comfortable and the length is no too short I would and will wear these to train in the gym too,where as some of the shorter length running shorts I would not.
all in all a good buy and I would happily get another pair in future.

a trip to the gym today for another steady run feeling some progress ran 5 miles in 37:49 and it was far more comfortable,still had to work hard at this pace but not a total mess at the end. I am enjoying mixing up the paces and distances,helps my motivation and seems to help my mood yesterday was a bad day mood wise felt very low and with my depression today was a struggle to get out...but glad I did now.

A better day today both in mood as managed get a lot of open uni work done yesterday and enjoyed it,and today's run it was a steady easy pace could have gone faster but still did  10 miles in 1h 21m 43s. was quite good conditions not too windy stayed dry although I quite like a bit of rain on a long run it is a good route in preparation for the half marathon as this has a really steep hilly section near the middle  which is similar to the race route. 
 good result for a long run for me and first time back at this distance in a long time.right time get some food then off out for another dog walk with my wicked little hound.

and here is nice photo at the halfway point of run :)